Why can't you understand depression is a disease?
Why can't you understand medication won't cure it it only masks the pain
I don't know how to be nice
I've always been treated like a bitch
so that's the only way i know how to act
I'm tired of the lies
I'm tired of the pain
I'm only 19 but i feel so much older
I'm tired of being treated like a baby
I will break
I will fall
You say I'm letting the devil control me
Well, what should i do?
I can't just keep masking the pain
So much bitter resentment I've been hiding all these years
You know why I refuse help? Because it always backfired in the past
Your the one patch of sunshine in my life
I'm not trying to lead you on
I just feel like you could do better
And this is not a breakup
I just feel like I'm hung
How can I tell you what's bothering me when I don't even know myself

Kiss
Topic: Poetry
This one is less sucky.

Its called kiss.

It started with a kiss. I never knew I could end up like this. I can see myself falling in love with you. I can see myself marrying you. It shocks me but doesn't make me unhappy. I can see us with kids together. You treat me like a queen. I can definitely see you as my king. I think I'm already falling in love with you. I can see us making love. I think we'll last. It all started with your kiss. I see a future for us.
Indefinitely.

Untitled
Mood:  amorous
Here's one of my sucky new poems.

Kissing you makes my week
When you call it gets me through the day
You make me happier than I've been in a long time
I can't wait to tell my best friend about you
I think I'm falling in love with you

TIME
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: Poetry
Time is precious
I've loved you unconditionally
I know its pointless but I'm still upset
I know your dying
It may even seem silly I'm about a dog
But I love him so I will continue to write
I get attached easily
But I'm happy with you
Your happy with me
We love each other
Don't hang on for me if your in pain
I love you
And we will meet again in heaven my friend

Fair
Mood:  a-ok
This is a song I wrote last night. Its not as great as my others but here it goes.Its called fair.

FAIR
I wanna play fair. But what's fair about me lovin' you?
I wanna run my fingers through your hair
Give her up and get with me
I'll treat ya better
Might as well give up

Chorus:
Might as well give up. Get with me. We can be happyyyyyyyy. Maybe I love you.

End Chorus:

Wanna play fair but there's love in the air.
Love in the airrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Falls apart
Make my world fall apart

Like you always do

Your crumbling on the brink of destruction

You say you love me but your still with her

I don't care about the age difference

If your not gonna be with me stop making me want you

Stop arousing my interest every time we're near

I'm jealous

I won't deny

Jealous of her

I'm younger and better looking

You say you think I'm hot

Then why aren't we together?

I'm ready to ignore my instinct and take the plunge into that final frontier

I'm ready to fall in love.

Tears
Tears they fall without warning, they fall when you lose a friend, they fall when someone breaks your heart, they fall when your lonely and depressed, they fall when theirs no one to dance with, they fall when someone turns you down, they fall when someone betrays you, to tell you the truth i wish they would never fall.

Leave
you don't get the hints to leave me
just go
you'll get over it trust me
you will
it's not hard other boys do
this is my goodbye

Treater
you treater
you went out with him
hugged and kissed him
after i warned you about him
you'll see he'll break you
like he broke me
but i didn't deserve it
but you do
so i say burn

Piss Off
you piss me off
the way you are pisses me off
the way you act pisses me off
the way how your controlling pisses me off
one day you won't be able to control me
that may piss you off
but it makes up for all the times you pissed me off.

I just wanted to tell you about my day off. Well, I put job applications in, went to wal-mart, and got a
great haircut. I love it since Fremont wal-mart became a supercenter. I can buy anything there. That's were I got my haircut! At the salon there.